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Devious Journal Entry

Sun Jul 12, 2009, 4:57 AM
  • Mood: Lonely
  • Listening to: Room of Angel
  • Reading: Can't Remember
  • Watching: Weeds
  • Playing: Silent Hill 4
  • Eating: Fried Chicken
  • Drinking: SoBe
Sometimes, when certain things happen around me, I kind of grow depressed. Usually this happens when I see people cuddling or showing affection for each other in public. Whenever I see this, I feel terribly lonely. I have not had a single intimate relationship, and I long for someone that I can cuddle with and show love for them. Not the obligatory family love though. That's different. It doesn't help that I'm usually shy around people I don't know all to well and I don't communicate that well long-distance (I usually don't call someone, out of an irrational fear that they will be busy and that I'm getting in their way). I also have a problem with groups. Whenever there's more than three people, including me, I tend to grow quieter and just observe what's going on around me, hardly contributing into the conversation out of another irrational fear that I'll try to say something half-way intelligent, but be told that I was incorrect and off-topic. I feel much more comfortable talking one-on-one, and will usually take someone to the side if I want to say something. Sometimes, when I see charismatic people, who gets every bodies attention by just walking into the room (I do know one of those), I usually get jealous, although, I try not to let that spoil what we already have. It's not their fault that I'm the quiet introverted type that wants something [b]more[/b], while they are surrounded, and don't really give a fuck. I apologize if you don't want to hear this attention getting emo bullshit, but unfourtunatley, this is how I feel at this moment, and I just wanted to say something.
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In other news, I'm also posting on FurAffinity [link] , and I'm updating some pictures there, some here, but most of them will be on both sites. So if you want to see all of the pictures, please watch both accounts.

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Devious Info

  • Current Residence: Seattle
  • Interests: Drawing, Animating, Reading, listening to Musack, writing
  • Favourite movie: Fight Club
  • Favourite band or musician: Tool
  • Favourite genre of music: Hard Rock, Techno, Gregorian Chant, Folk/Celtic
  • Favourite artist: Gryf
  • Favourite poet or writer: Cuck Palahniuk
  • Favourite photographer: Candice Marshall
  • Favourite style of art: Realistic
  • Operating System: Vista
  • MP3 player of choice: WMP
  • Wallpaper of choice: blue
  • Skin of choice: Lumines+: Tiny Piano
  • Favourite game: Trilby
  • Favourite gaming platform: Ps2
  • Favourite cartoon character: Stalin
  • Personal Quote: "Cheer the F**K up"
  • Tools of the Trade: Photoshop, Pencil

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Hey it's Rachel from gym!

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Wolverine: So read my mind.
Dr. Jean Grey: I'd rather not.
Wolverine: C'mon. You afraid you might like it?
Dr. Jean Grey: I doubt it.
LOLz, love your avatar! X'D

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The Bishie Photog is here! >8D Where's my bishies at, wi-otches!? :mwahaha: XD
Thanx 4 Da Fav

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Two lovers
Yup, glad to give it! :)

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"Puurrge!"
Hey you! Yea you with that crazy face that gave me that friend add...yea y'know what I'm talking about! So I've got to say ONE THING! 'Thank ya

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I suppose the things people say when your young don't make any sense for a while. That is until your put into the place where that person was when they told you those words, and for me, that holds true.
OH YEAH!!?? WELL YOUR WELCOME!

Hmph!:pissed:

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"Puurrge!"
Thanks for the fav.

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If someone proves God exists, proof denies faith, and without faith, God is nothing!
as in your word, "no problem" :)

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"Puurrge!"
cool.

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If someone proves God exists, proof denies faith, and without faith, God is nothing!

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